men blues

FalIen Angel: yea...really... what the hell
NinaNero4ever: hahaha nah i wasn't a slut back then
FalIen Angel: I'm like... gettin kinda concerned for u
FalIen Angel: u know that, right?
NinaNero4ever: y? what did i do?
NinaNero4ever: ok the whole bahamas thing
NinaNero4ever: i was just depressed and wanted to express my sexual independence from men
NinaNero4ever: i one nitestanded the guy like i've been done b4 it meant nuthng to me and i worn protection so it was all kewl it felt good and it was done with actually no he still talks to me online but whaeva i'm not going back thee anytime soon
FalIen Angel: well what the hell is up with Desion?
FalIen Angel: and Jerry?
FalIen Angel: Like... what the hell
FalIen Angel: I just don't get it
FalIen Angel: and like... you go back and forth with it
FalIen Angel: and yea... thats not healthy
NinaNero4ever: well jerry i'm not doing anything with
NinaNero4ever: deseon well i'm trying to ween myself off of that
NinaNero4ever: and i mean it's not like i have sex alllll the time with all these diff guys
NinaNero4ever: it's the same ones
FalIen Angel: no I don't mean that
NinaNero4ever: what?
FalIen Angel: I mean your ego... like why the hell are u talking to them
NinaNero4ever: .....
NinaNero4ever: i really can't answer that and not cuz i don't want to it's more like i don't know
FalIen Angel: :-(
NinaNero4ever: i mean i see it
NinaNero4ever: i see that i get with losers
NinaNero4ever: and i see taht i stay with them cuz its easy for them to want me
NinaNero4ever: i don't have to do anything to be loved
NinaNero4ever: or even wanted
NinaNero4ever: no one wants me
NinaNero4ever: not for myself
NinaNero4ever: i've never met a guy who was a good guy who was like yea ur kewl we should hang out
NinaNero4ever: even if it was just to be friends
FalIen Angel: Well I don't think u hang with the right people to even get that up front.
NinaNero4ever: i don't know what kinda people i hang with
NinaNero4ever: and the only people that ever seem to aaproach me are people that wants something from me
NinaNero4ever: i don't mean people i know tho like u and kat and stuff
NinaNero4ever: i mean like new people
NinaNero4ever: like when i'm out somewhere someone will only want me for the way i look
NinaNero4ever: i think i've given up on looking for a real relationship with a man
NinaNero4ever: it's like all they want is my body
NinaNero4ever: if they want that at all
NinaNero4ever: u know what i don't really want to talk about this tonite i've been so happy recently i don't wann kill it....thinking of all my mistakes and all
NinaNero4ever: many many mistakes
NinaNero4ever: it's in the past